Monday, October 08, 2018

boom doom chapter 1

early 80s, kuala lumpur, malaysia.

giving the last kisses and goodbyes to her big kids, jen stepped out from the house pulling her neatly packed luggage. leaving almost no trails behind. "this is it", she mumbled.

she recalled how she met their father 20 years ago she thought he was the right person that she was searching for. they got married when she was 16 and they got their first little girl. zen resembles her in a lot of way especially their big round eyes and button nose. he was a smart and hardworking guy working day and night to give them a better life but things slowly changed when his career spiked rapidly. he established his own company at the age of 30 when their second baby was born.

the more money he made the less he came home. he started to attend a lot of events and gatherings with his partners and clients, mostly drinking and gambling events where he met a lot of younger women. he often came home drunken leaving all the mess behind for her to clean. he would beat her when he got sober the next day for a small argument about yesterday.

being through all these hardest days of her life, she still believed and hoped that her husband would return to the man he used to be but the situation had only gotten worse. he gambled every day in every way he could have imagined. on days he won the bet, he would buy good foods and pay her more allowance. he would give their kids the most pretty toys and watches. on the other hand, he would come home and beat jen and begged for the money he gave her when he lost every single penny he had.

one afternoon, he came home silently tip-toed into the baby room. he carried their 3rd little baby daughter who was only 7 months old to one of their neighbors in return of cash. only did she know what had happened when she realized her baby was missing but it was too late. he accepted the money and used it to pay-off his gambling debts. jen has tried every way she could think of to bring back her baby but to no avail. she visited her baby a few times but was soon her present was rejected by the new family thinking that it would the best that all strings attached were cut off. she reluctantly left with a broken heart and accepted the fact that there were no ways to meet her baby anymore. nothing is worst than a broken-hearted mother. to her relief, her daughter's new father made a good fortune. jen was sure that she would be better off with the new family than staying in a hopeless family that she was trying to build.

she felt sorry for herself but even sorrier for her kids, they were the only reason that kept her strong and but she could not take it anymore when she knew he had an affair with a woman who worked in a pub he always goes to. all these years, she never know that they had a 10 years old son. this left her no choice but to divorce this cold-hearted man.

she took the first bus before sunrise to leave the city she had lived in for more than three decades, she sobbed a little. when the wind traveled through the window beside her seat hit her face and dried up her tears, she knew she was leaving for good. at least, it was what she thought at the that moment.

her youngest son was 15 when she left.


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