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boom doom!

it's been ages since i blogged the last time, it was a biggest hit back then during my uni days. everybody was busy updating their blogs but now people are more into instagram, twitter, etc. i used to update a lot of status via my fb hoping that someone could at least care a little for me but i stopped it a while ago.

to start with a new beginning, i have deleted all the previous posts that i don't even remember what i posted seriously! nah.. mumbled too much i guess.

if i had stopped so long, why am i doing this again? oh.. tbh i'm just sorta bored and i tend to do that a lot.. being bored.. and being alone... it's kinda.. lifestyle i guess. people must be thinking that i'm lonely or what.. don't be silly! believe it or not, there are people like me who love being alone and not feeling lonely. i do feel lonely sometimes, when i'm not with my family. my family means my parents + my doggies.. i love them a lot. oh yea. i haven't introduced myself. i'm 30 and still single.. forever single 😃 you must be wondering, why is a 30 year old woman still sticking around with her parents and not living independently? you know, it's an asian culture, a lot of us do that. of course, for me i'm not following a culture or what.. simply because my mom, dad and dogs are all i care about now. this must be unusual for westerner.

oh gosh, i wish i could find a way to sharpen my language. i'm not usually good at english. my apologies if i did a lot of grammar mistakes and this write up seems to be lacking a lot of nice vocabulary. however, i do feel myself improved a lot compared to last time, i don't even dare to speak in front of everyone. i used to score poorly in primary and secondary school but i met a good lecturer in my pre-u. she's very passionate and a payer of compliments, no one ever compliments my english, she was the first. she encouraged me and made me more confident to be more outspoken but i didn't have the chance to thank her and i never met her again.. even worse, i'd forgotten her name. well, i will bring up another post to talk about how i learned and improved my languages.

i've been graduated for 8 years now, time flies. i halted my job seeking for half a year in the hope to continue my oversea study but somehow i was unable to go. this will be a new topic too. maybe i will update my story based on timeline

anyways, i really wish to introduce more about myself and sharing more about my country malaysia. also, malaysian-chinese culture.. about my family and how we live together and our interactions.. even though i'm confident no one will be reading my blog, i still wish to do it just for my own sake. In like another 10 or 20 years time, i could read it back nostalgically and wonder, "how good if life could rewind, why the hell i'm still alive".

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